Sunday, May 9, 2010

My Heart is Not Ready

"There is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and Sisters, I bid you beware
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear..."

This is the first verse of a poem written by Rudyard Kipling, titled "The Power of the Dog." And this verse has been tumbling around in my head practically all day.

Our senior Golden Maguire is not doing well. He's not able to stand up. When I get him to his feet, his back toes are curling under, not allowing him to stand. With Carl working until late tonight I've managed to get him outside, but it's not been easy because he's a big, stocky Golden weighing over 80 pounds. I can tell that Maguire is in pain. But I'm hoping that the return of cold weather has just caused a flare up of arthritis in his hips and with some medications by morning maybe he'll feel better, and I will too.
Our sweet senior Golden Cowboy just left us in March and I'm not ready to have my heart torn and broken again.

29 comments:

  1. Paws khrossed it is the return of the khold...

    But if not, woo are in our thoughts as is Maguire -

    As many of us keep sharing on Digby's Blog, the tail and eyes will tell -

    Hugz&Khysses,
    Khyra

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  2. We are sending lots of prayers your way for Maguire, and hugs for you too!

    Sam

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  3. Woof! Woof! What a great poem ... thanks for sharing. sending my Golden Thoughts to Maguire. Lots of Golden Woofs, Sugar

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  4. Hello Kim
    Hopefully you are right and its the cold weather - fingers crossed and lots of good thoughts coming your way
    Cathy
    ps loved your Mothers Day post - everyone else expressed my feelings about you being a fabulous mother to all your four legged friends

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  5. I have our paws crossed for Maguire.
    No its not time to have your heart break again, and right now I can tell your heart is so heavy.
    I wish there was something I could do,
    love
    tweedles

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  6. My heart is with you and your blessed senior. Whenever one of my companions has grown old it always amazes me how quickly the time passed from puppyhood to adult to senior citizen...

    Hoping that the weather is primarily the problem with his problem getting up.

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  7. Kim, just wanted to let you know we are thinking of you. We will hope for positive news. Clare & Jim

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  8. Sure hope the meds do the trick and he is much improved by morning. Take good care of yourself too. Hope you get a good nights sleep.

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  9. Oh, we are so, so sorry. You'll be in our thoughtstoday.

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  10. Oh Kim
    Each day brings another degree of sadness. I'm really sorry for your pain, but you must know how are really are your doggies' angel! (The Golden Mommy!) What would they do/have done without you! You are a treasure to them. I know its so, so hard. I am sending you lots and lots of hugs. You and Macguire will also be in my prayers today.
    With love
    MAXMOM IN SA

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  11. Oh,bless him! My heart is heavy reading your post this morning...I feel for you so much.Enjoy the precious days you have together,he will let you know when the time comes.Lots of hugs and cuddles to your dear sweet furry friend.

    Bellaboo :0)

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  12. fingers, toes and everything crossed that the warmer weather will arrive soon and he will feel a bit better.

    Gill in Canada

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  13. Hi Kim & Maguire
    Thinking of you & sending prayers & good thoughts your way...
    Hugs & licks,
    Nadine, Apples & Neeli

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  14. Kim,

    My thoughts and prayers are with you - the anguish of loosing a pet is almost too much to bear.

    (((HUGS)))
    Lynn

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  15. Poor Maguire...I know how he feels with the arthritis. Storm systems always make me hurt! let's just hope he gets over this. Between him and Digby, it's hard worrying about our little furry friends!

    Liz

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  16. Dear Kim,
    Our love, and love from all over the world is with you and sweet Maguire and all of your family. How I wish we could do more; you do so much to make the world a better place.

    Gentle woofs,
    Cheyanne

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  17. My Heart goes out to you all...
    I don't know if I could ever stand the heartbreak of loosing another old Golden Lady...
    One had my heart right from the start and I've never gotten over the Love I had for that dog.

    Wishing you the strength you'll need to survive this also...
    Always My Best~Marilyn

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  18. I hope that the flare up passes and that your old fellow still has some nice days in the sunshine left.
    Lovely mothers' day post too - I think you found an excellent way to spend the day.

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  19. I guess I had shut down before your post came up. It's morning now, Did the medicine help Maguire? I surely hope so. I hope you are feeling better too! Please keep us posted!

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  20. Hi Kim,
    I do hope Magurie is better today. Poor baby. I was reading your Mother's Day post, and I thought I'd share something with you (and whoever else reads your comments). I always loved kids, too. I was only a toddler when that was evident. I was 16 months when my cousin was born. I would make him cry because I was always kissing him.And that was true of all my cousins born there after. Of course, I knew early on that I was "different", and I tried so, so very much not to be. I was well into my 20's when I realized I am who I am. Then I met Mike, who had done that long ago. He nursed me thru my issues with my family....it was a rough road, too. Obviously, we can't have kids. And I'm not convinced we can provide for a child, as I think we should be able to. So there are no kids for us in the near future, either. BUT...I have 4 nephews and 3 nieces, with another nephew due in July. So that will have to suffice, I guess. Mike has 2 nieces in Texas, but he doesn't have a great family relationship. He doesn't speak to his dad and step mom at all, and only texts his mom and step dad. But my family is close knit, and we are happy with what we have. My mom and I are friends, and occasionally have lunch together when her work brings her to my neck of the woods. I hope you have a great day.

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  21. Hi Kim,
    I do hope Magurie is better today. Poor baby. I was reading your Mother's Day post, and I thought I'd share something with you (and whoever else reads your comments). I always loved kids, too. I was only a toddler when that was evident. I was 16 months when my cousin was born. I would make him cry because I was always kissing him.And that was true of all my cousins born there after. Of course, I knew early on that I was "different", and I tried so, so very much not to be. I was well into my 20's when I realized I am who I am. Then I met Mike, who had done that long ago. He nursed me thru my issues with my family....it was a rough road, too. Obviously, we can't have kids. And I'm not convinced we can provide for a child, as I think we should be able to. So there are no kids for us in the near future, either. BUT...I have 4 nephews and 3 nieces, with another nephew due in July. So that will have to suffice, I guess. Mike has 2 nieces in Texas, but he doesn't have a great family relationship. He doesn't speak to his dad and step mom at all, and only texts his mom and step dad. But my family is close knit, and we are happy with what we have. My mom and I are friends, and occasionally have lunch together when her work brings her to my neck of the woods. I hope you have a great day.

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  22. Aww Kim, poor Maguire, I hope it's nothing too serious. Just left Wilf & Digby's blog and have tears rolling down my face. Lets just hope it's the cold weather hun. Always something to worry about isn't there. Sue x

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  23. My thoughts are with you. I hope it's just arthritis. I'm still not over the dog I lost in 2003.

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  24. We are praying for Maguire. What a sweet sugar face he has.
    We hope he starts to feel better, please give him a big hug from us.


    Sheila & Bob,
    Mom & Dad to
    Hamish & Rescue Sophie

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  25. My heart aches for you...You're in our thoughts and prayers..

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  26. My first dog, Nesta, went through similar episodes. I never found out what was causing them, and they always passed. Come to think of it, he experienced them during a bitter cold stretch in December. After three days of these "spells" (he could walk intermittently through out the day) they stopped and never happened again.

    Here's hoping that Maguire will feel better soon!

    -C

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  27. My fingers are crossed, Simbas paws are crossed, and all of our hearts are crossed for you guys. You will be in my prayers this week.

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  28. Ms. Kim,
    We are all too familiar with the heartbreak we feel when the seniors are stressed. Why do we continue to open our hearts to the frail and old, knowing that their time with us will be all too short. We do it because they need us, they need the love and care that you so willingly provide. Yes, at some time your heart will again be broken, and hopefully many times over for it is the price of providing a the love and relief that these seniors would not otherwise be provided. Better that you should care and be hurt than they were to have no one to be with them or no one to hold and pet their head and to caringly say goodbye when the time comes. We will be praying hard for Maguire's comfort and welfare. We know that you will do what's best for him and that you will be with him through his troubled times. Your heart will be ready should it need be, and you'll hopefully be prepared to do it all again to save another senior. Maguire is loved and so are you.
    - TBH&K

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