Hope for Hamlet and a Better Tomorrow

If you're looking for a 'feel good moment' from me, I'm sorry you but you won't get it from this post--Although maybe you will from this picture of CarrieAnne taken today.  But I'm sitting here discouraged and a bit depressed about the day.  As you know from my previous post I took Hamlet to the vet.  The news was not good.  The tumor is feeling warm to the touch.  Because of the infection the vet said we can't use steroids because they can suppress the immune system that he needs to fight the infection.  We discussed doing surgery again...She wanted to talk to the surgeon who did the surgery.  She called him and he happened to be working today and he asked us to come over and he would see us.  He and I discussed everything.  The tumor is totally wrapped around the tendons in Hamlet's shoulder.  Dr. Walker told me that the only thing that he felt could be done would be to remove Hamlet's leg, which he did not recommend because he thought it would be very difficult for a dog Hamlet's age.  So, in a nutshell, nothing can be done.  I was in tears and I left forgetting to pay the bill.  (I called them back and was told it was 'no charge').  I called my vet and returned to the office to pick up 2 antibiotics.  I feel like Hamlet has been given a band-aid fix for a gaping wound.  But I know I need to be hopeful and optimistic--I know those feelings will come, but right now it's difficult.

When I arrived home there was a large truck full of gravel and a Bob-Cat sitting in our driveway.   My heart sank just a little lower as I realized that they were probably there to put gravel on the grassy access to the 10 acres in back of us. I got out of my van and asked the man what they were doing--He confirmed what I already knew, but told me that they were making an access on the OTHER side of the property and not at the top of our driveway--He asked if it was okay to use our driveway this one time.  He told me that Fred had asked them to not use our driveway any more than needed.  Of course I agreed.  It was the only good news of the day.  I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Just as I finished my post, I looked up as the moon appeared--It didn't stay around long, but I was so taken by how beautiful it was, an omen perhaps?