Friday, November 15, 2013

Sleepless Nights and Worry

To start, my apologies for not being able to stop by your blogs and catch up on your news this week.  But it has been a week of sleepless nights and a lot of worry because of our girls, Wendy and Annie.

Annie's appetite has been on the decline for more than a week, and she didn't eat at all on Thursday or Friday morning.  I tried to remedy that by tempting  her with the smelliest of foods, but she wanted none of it. Annie also hasn't wanted to go for walks, and has been sleeping for hours in the same place.  Trips outside have been very brief.  The middle of the night I've been awakened by her incessant drinking, and constant barking at what appears to be nothing.   When she's not doing either of those, I've been awake just to check on her (and Wendy).
Then there's Wendy.  A tumor that she has had for more than a year, started to grow a few weeks ago, and has now become ulcerated and infected.  From past experience with large tumors, by Wednesday I was so sure that the only option for Wendy would be to do surgery to remove the tumor--But at Wendy's tender age of 16, there is no way whatsoever that I would put her through that.  And so I reluctantly made a vet appointment and convinced myself that the only thing that could be done would be to say good-bye to her.  Once at the vets office, Wendy was visibly shaking as we waited to be seen, which was unusual for her--Did Wendy know what I had already decided?  Whether she knew or not, the vet didn't see it my way at all.  She feels that we should try two strong antibiotics to try and knock down the infection, keep it clean and see if that makes a difference.  I understand that this may not work, but I totally agree that it's worth a try.
~Wendy~
So with that new found optimism, and a twinge of guilt for the hopelessness I'd been feeling, as I was getting Wendy back into my van to go home, her hopeful and soul filled eyes looked into mine and she barked, a single bark at me--A reminder no doubt for me to stop giving up so easily.  That same reminder is what I'm hanging onto for Annie too.  She ate her meal this evening; so as I silently celebrate, I'm trying to be positive that our two very special girls, Annie and Wendy will be okay.

39 comments:

  1. oh, i am so very sorry for your stress and heartache. i hope both girls can get better - and if not, the decision to let go will be made for you.

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  2. Hang on to those signs and their messages to you. You, Wendy and Annie are in my thoughts.

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  3. A turn for the better...I hope they improve quickly. Sweet girls.

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  4. Sending good thoughts for Annie, Wendy, Cissy and the rest of the gang at golden pines.

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  5. Oh my gosh......my heart is aching for you...I would have done exactly what you've done..absolutely worth a try....you could get some real quality time...I'll be thinking of you all every minute...give the girls kisses...

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  6. My mom thinks you are some type of angel that watches over these special goldies. May your crown be filled with golden jewels.

    Aroo to you,
    Sully

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  7. A gentle reminder that we really need to stay in the present...despite ourselves.

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  8. Dear girls, I hope you sleep tonight, they sleep, and tomorrow all things will be brighter. Many loving thoughts for you all. Jean , NZ.

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  9. I had been thinking abut Annie, knowing not long ago she had not been herself. We look at any positive sign with hope. It looks like both girls are real fighters.
    SWEET THOUGHTS FOR ALL OF YOUR BABIES. Special love and pats to Wendy, Annie, and Cissy.
    Gus' Mom

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  10. So sorry to hear about your girls Kim -- I don't know how you do it day in and day out -- thinking of you and hoping for the best outcome. ♥

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  11. Sorry to hear about your little girls - I hope they recover. It is such a worry when they are ill. xxx

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  12. Hi Kim. I am so sorry to hear about Annie and Wendy. Hopefully things will turn for the better. Keeping them both in my prayers and your family as well.
    Ana

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  13. Oh my dear Kim, so sad to hear this, my heart is heavy for these two beautiful girls.......Hope all goes well for them, sending good vibes and prays.......love the picture of the Cardinal, so pretty, Big Hugs Francine.

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  14. The bright cardinal seems like a ray of hope in all of this.Praying for the girls,that they`ll get well,& praying for you as well,God bless you.phyllis

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  15. You, Wendy and Annie are in my thoughts. Sending you healing wishes.

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  16. Oh Kim, I'm so sorry to hear that Annie and Wendy are not feeling well. Keeping both of them in my thoughts and prayers, as well as you and Carl. Hopefully the antibiotics do their job and Wendy is feeling much better soon! And glad that Annie started eating again, that is a good sign!

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  17. Having 2 sick at once must be overwhelming! I can't imagine. I believe they will tell you when it is time, so try not to worry too much and try to just enjoy.

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  18. I do wish every good wishes for both girls as they are so adorable and their companionship is a necessity.

    Hope all goes well.

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  19. *hugs* ♥

    Take care of yourself and don't worry about our blogs.
    We'll still be here.
    Thinking of you.

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  20. Having just days with them is better then no days!!!!!!!! Good!!!

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  21. Oh, Kim this is so difficult. I'm sending good thoughts and lots of hugs your way. And, please, don't ever feel bad about not getting around to our blogs. You have so much on your plate.

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  22. AWWW, Poor Annie and Wendy.. I hope the antibiotics work and I am sending my prayers for all of you. I wish you have a happy weekend!

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  23. Sending hugs and healing vibes Wendy and Annie's way.

    Brooke, Cessna, Canyon & Rogue
    http://www.ruledbypaws.ca

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  24. Any illness is worrying but when it's one of our old timers, It's much more so. Morgan will have her cyst removed in a couple weeks but the vet says he'll use a local and that I don't need to worry. I'll worry just the same till she's safely home with me.

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  25. Sorry to hear to this . I hope all goes well for you all ! Hugs to you all !

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  26. Howdy Mates, we can only say how much we admire you for all your love and care for your oldies! They are so special. We have paws crossed for Annie and Wendy. Take care. No worries, and love, Stella and Rory (and Carol)

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  27. I'm sorry for your stress Kim. I hope your girls improve. Maybe Wendy was saying 'i love you.. thanks for not giving up on me!'. I think they truly know how much you love them.

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  28. Your babies are in my thoughts Kim. I really admire your working with seniors like you do. You're a special person!

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  29. Life is precious and they know it, Kim!...:)JP

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  30. We are thinking positive thoughts and prayer for Wendy and Annie.

    For you, too, Kim!

    Love and hugs,

    Jo

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  31. We know how worried you are,, so worried- but we are going to sit with you and be positive too.
    Postive thoughts for all at Golden Pines.
    love
    tweedles

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  32. and we're right there with you.
    keeping positive the WHOLE way.
    until we're absolutely forced otherwise.
    love and strength to you dear one.
    xo

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  33. Hi Y'all,

    Oh it is so difficult to know what to do. My Human always says "it's in the eyes". "Watch the eyes".

    That last photo, the cardinal, is like a beautiful, positive sign.

    Y'all come back now,
    Hawk aka BrownDog

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  34. My dear friend, There is such love that surrounds you and that you give to those in your care. I'm glad that Wendy barked at you; you've inspired me today as we had some disappointing news from concerning the selling of a house in Ca. Life always throws curved balls but it is what we make of them that is important. So I'm trying not to be disappointed and trust that it will all work out-you've given me such encouragement today.
    Hugs, Noreen

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  35. So many great comments and words of wisdom. Hugs to you Kim!

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  36. Just thinking about you. Our hearts are with you.
    Gus' Mom

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  37. Whee lubbs yeu and those Sweet Girls... so berry berry much.

    Little Reufus and the Mom

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  38. I was so happy to read in your latest post that Annie and Wendy are doing better! I hope they remain stable and happy for a while yet :)

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