Friday, September 5, 2014

What Helps

~CarrieAnne in late July~
As you know, it has been a difficult and sad time for us, as we grieve the loss of our precious CarrieAnne. Thank you to all of you for your thoughts, prayers and words of sympathy.  I am deeply touched and humbled by your taking a moment to share her loss with us.  You truly make a difference. 

Yesterday was a difficult day.  Without much sleep the night before and going to work for part of the morning, left me exhausted.  The rest of the day was spent quietly at home.  The holistic vet came to see Gus and she helped me to sort out what happened, and encouraged me to not feel guilty about the choice I'd made for Carrie to have the surgery.  I think that feeling of guilt will stay with me for a long time.

At the end of the day, however, I did find that what can make anyone feel better, at least for a few moments is a Scottie and a fully charged bubble-gun.
What would I do without Todd? 
Thank-you all again for your kind words, support and friendship.  

40 comments:

  1. Oh Mom - BUBBLES! I can get them! -- Sending hugs to you Kim and chuckling at Todd!

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  2. LOL- he really is a joy to behold. He seems to exude love and energy :)
    You can't help but love him can you!
    Cathy

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  3. You must never feel guilt. God had a special job for CarrieAnne that had to be done now, and she answered the call.

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  4. Guilt is one of the worse feelings we can have. Don't feel guilty for your choice, just know that you did what you thought was best for your sweet Carrie Ann.
    Todd is such a bundle of joy. Roscoe loves the bubbles as well.
    Thank you for sharing your stories with us followers. I truly enjoy every single one of them, no matter the circumstances.
    Hugs, Ana

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  5. todd is gleeful medicine, indeed.

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  6. Everything you did for Carrie Ann was did with love - you are never wrong when you do that.

    Thinking of all of you.

    Monty and Harlow

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  7. Good boy, Todd. I told you to lighten up the place.

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  8. hmm...a Scottie and a bubble gun...I must remember this when days become too heavy!

    Edgar and his mum

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  9. Never feel guilty for something you do out of love.
    Sending cyber hugs your way!

    Bubbles... Todd enjoys

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  10. Mom said we were going to go buy bubbles this week and she would play wif us in honor of Sweet Carrie Ann.
    stella rose

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  11. Bubble gun........what fun, I will stop after work and get one.

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  12. Love the bubble pics, we just posted our bubble photos on the blog yesterday. Be easy on yourself, your choice was made out of love!

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  13. I'd tell you not to do the 'what ifs', but I still do them over Monty, Samba and Sky. The guilt never really goes away even though I know I did my best at the time. Nothing like a silly pup to put a smile on your face through the tears.
    Sue

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  14. I won't tell you not to feel guilt, because I know you will regardless. But, continue to enjoy Todd and all of your sweet animals, as I know you will.
    Kim, EVERYTHING you do, you do from a totally unselfish place with only regard for the welfare of all of your loves. Sunny comes to mind immediately. You and Carl"s loving decision to mentor his life when others were willing to throw him away, caused you ties with the rescue, but Sunny gained the best life hecould ever have.
    We can't predict the future, but CarrieAnne knew she was loved and cherished for all of her years with you. That is what counts.
    Let your dogs help heal you. They love you and know they are loved. What better tribute in this life.
    Hugs,
    Gus' Mom

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  15. CarrieAnne, decisions you made with much thought, and questions to everyone concerned with her surgery, so many, never feel guilty, she was so loved, and Todd with bubbles, happiness in his eyes, take comfort in friends and your pack with you right there. Grieve, tears, memories flooding over, those of us who have been here, know so well how heart-breaking this is. Hugs as you are nearly in your weekend. Jean.XXX

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  16. Oh yeah, Ryker got me through cancer and the death of my mom. What would we do without them!

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  17. Todd makes me smile too. Cute photos of Todd! I am sure CarrieAnne enjoyed her time with you at Golden Pines..

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  18. Don't feel any guilt, you were thinking of her...........and, oh about Todd, thats what us puppers are supposed to do....make you fell all better!

    The Mad Scots

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  19. Those photos of Todd make us smile, so we know they are healing for you. We're afraid of bubbles.

    Feel no guilt...no way of knowing what another outcome would be.

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  20. Gosh Kim, I'm so sorry to read about your loss of CarrieAnne. I can only imagine how hard it is to not go back and question your choices but you don't know what would have happened if you had made a different choice. You did what was right. Hugs to you my friend and that Todd is too much. His personality just shines through on his photos!

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  21. Kim,, you only think of your furrys,, we know that,,, your furrys know that.
    I agree with the comment above- let you dogs help heal you,.
    We are here,
    love
    tweedles and moms

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  22. Again, bless you! Here's my post on the subject: http://cheerfulmonk.com/2014/09/06/heartbreak/

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  23. You made the only choice there was in that decision, so please try not to feel guilt. CarrieAnne was very loved and, in the end, that is all that matters.

    xxx

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  24. We are so sorry to hear about CarrieAnne. Saying goodbye is never easy. We hope you can stop feeling guilty. Hugs.

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  25. Our rottweiler used to love bubbles as well. I'm sorry for your lost, Kim.
    Hugs,
    Satu and Mickey.

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  26. Thank you, Todd, for helping your mom in this tough time.

    And, Kim, you did what you thought was best for CarrieAnne. You followed your heart and mind toward what you thought was the best way to give her a good and longer life. So, please try to put away the guilt.

    One vet said to me, after K's death, that any decision that is made with a heart full of love for your dog is the right decision, no matter how it turns out. Those words helped me, and I hope that perhaps they can help you. I know that you were guided by love.

    Keep up the good work, Todd!

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  27. Very nice, KB Bear...and, oh yes, Todd and the others will help you heal...

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  28. Oh no!!!!!! My heart hurts reading such sad news.RIP sweet girl.Big Hugs Francine.

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  29. I know I keep saying it, but it truly bears repeating that I so appreciate all your kind comments and support at what is a sad time for us. The guilt at times continues to be all too consuming. I know in time it will lessen, but I also know that it will always be a part of me. Thank-you all again for your friendship!!

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  30. If Carrie Anne could come back and say something to you, I know it would simply be "thank you". For all you did for her over her long life, for always loving her, and for being there when she reached the end of her journey. Thank goodness for Todd! Who could resist smiling at that little guy :)

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  31. Oh Kim, I just read about Carrie Ann below. She was your sweetheart, I know. I am so, so very sorry for your loss of her. I don't see how you do the work you do with these senior dogs. All I know it is a wonderful thing, a thing that warms my heart as it must warm the hearts of all the dogs. And, I remember telling you that Todd would be a much needed addition to your pack. He would be the one to cheer you up, to keep you going as sorrow and sadness would come, he would bring you joy always.

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  32. my darling girl.
    i cannot bring myself to read the actual post of carrie anne crossing the rainbow bridge. it is enough to simply know it. even now... writing through tears.
    never feel guilt. though i know you do. i still feel it over my zeke.
    time doesn't seem to quell that part of loss for some reason.
    but if ever there was a loving care giver in every single way ... it's YOU.
    carrie anne's smile is in our hearts thanks to you.
    that smile of hers that literally was everything that golden pines is all about.
    and now... wee todd with enchanting bubbles... and living life to the fullest for a little scottie dog. ... well. it helps.
    love you
    xo♥

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  33. O Sweet Kim... There is no better the Mom than you. None. Ever! There is no question, no doubt. CarrieAnne, Todd and all of your others... will be the first to agree!!! The sad thing is... Life is sometimes just grossly unfair. We Goldens handle that fact much better than you two leggers...

    We live forever in love.

    With love always from Little Reufus

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  34. thinking of you and sending hugs, Kim...

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  35. I am new to your blog and have been reading, through tears, about all that has happened lately. I am so very sorry for your loss. No doubt, you are a kind wonderful person.

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    1. Hello "Henny Penny!" It's so nice to meet you! THANK YOU for becoming my newest follower and for your kind comment! I'll look forward to getting to know you better, and hope that you'll stop by again really soon. --do you have a blog? -Kim-

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  36. Hi Kim, excuse my absence, I have just read the Carrie Ann stories and wanted to offer my sympathy to you and yours.She was such a beautiful dog and I know how much you will miss her.
    Condolences,
    Jo, Stella and Zkhat

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  37. Kim,,, I was reading KB's words about K and CarrieAnne, I do believe they were kindred sisiters- and are together,,,
    love
    tweedles

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