Wendy's Reminder and 600 Posts

I have reached a blogging milestone, 600 posts.  An achievement so easily made by many of you; for me, it has not been, but my goal is to keep going and work to be better at blogging.  I looked through previous posts, and with the recent loss of Taylor, I was reminded of the additions and subtractions that we've had since I started this blog.

One of the dogs that has been here from the very beginning, as you know is Wendy.  After more than 14 years together, she knows me well.  Many times when I've been consumed with a loss, she comes into the room and starts barking at me. This time was no different.  I'm not sure when I noticed that there is something different in her eyes when she does that.  But I know what she's telling me; she is reminding me that she and the others are still here, and that everything is and will be okay.  Wendy has always been an independent dog, but during these times she stays close and follows me around.  At nearly 16 years old, it's much harder for her to do these days, but she did. This morning, for the first time since we lost Taylor, she's not by my side, and is sleeping in, I know she's tired and needs her rest.  

~Wendy after a tiring 4 days for her~  

Despite the gloomy and rainy weather, and even though I'm totally exhausted both physically and emotionally from everything last week, the mood in the house is different.  Todd has already seen fit to dig a muddy hole, Sheba is carrying around one of my brand new shoes, Cissy is barking for reasons only she knows, and the dogs are waiting for me to take them on our morning walk. It's time to let that old wound opened by the loss of Taylor to try and begin to heal as best it can.

I will end my 600th post with saying that no words can begin to express my heartfelt thanks for your kindness and your thoughtful, sympathetic comments on the loss of Taylor. You've shared in our loss and have helped to ease the pain I feel in my heart, and that along with your friendships means more than you know.

Enjoy your Sunday! 

~CarrieAnne and Sheba~ 

Good-Bye to Taylor

Thank-you all for the good thoughts for Taylor, the blogging community truly is a place of kindness and compassion. 

However, this morning, Taylor still had no appetite, and was unable to stand or hold her head up for any length of time.  I felt that the kind thing to do would be to say our good-byes, and let her go.  I put Taylor into the car to take with me to work for a couple of hours until our appointment late morning.  Taylor seemed comfortable enough and we drove the nearly 1 hour commute in silence.  Several times I reached back to hold Taylor's paw and talk to her.  As I was nearing my office, I pulled out a CD of what a good friend of mine calls "angel music" and the hymn "How Great Thou Art" played.  Before it ended, Taylor had left this life for the next.

Even though we didn't have Taylor for very long, I am of course very saddened by the loss of this kind, gentle soul that loved ice and having her back and stomach scratched.  I will miss her enthusiasm at mealtime, her always offering me her paw to hold, and her quiet comforting nature.

I don't know much about Taylor's life before she came to us.  But from a family member who contacted me throughout the summer, I have no doubt that Taylor was a much loved companion of her former owner, 'Freda' who passed away in June. 

Taylor will not wait for us at the Rainbow Bridge. I am finding comfort in knowing that she will be met by 'Freda' and they will cross the Rainbow bridge together. 


God-speed Tator, until we meet again....thank-you for being a part of our lives these past four months, you will be missed and not forgotten....

 

Good Thoughts for Taylor

~Taylor in June~

The day started with wash down, cool down, gully washing rain that we've not had in nearly a month.  But for me, it began with a call to the vet about Taylor.  She wasn't feeling well yesterday and was unable to keep any food or water down.  This morning she refused food all together, which is very unusual for Taylor or for most Goldens for that matter.  Added to that she was pretty subdued, and I thought that was probably because she was a little dehydrated, caused by what I thought might be pancreatitis.

The tests were done and the very last one was an x-ray that showed that Taylor has a tumor right next to her stomach. Dr. D believes it is likely hemangiosarcoma.  Because of her age (about 13) doing an ultrasound to learn a little more about the tumor, will not change what we would do for Taylor.  I've been sent home with some medications to attempt to settle her stomach.  Hopefully I can get her to eat and keep food in her stomach.  This evening she's been really quiet and has hardly moved since I got her home.  I'm hoping by tomorrow Taylor will feel better and get past this rough patch and that she'll maintain a good quality of life for a while longer.

I've not written much about Taylor, because there hasn't been a lot to tell you.  She's a quiet unassuming girl that came to us this past summer when her owner passed away.  She has been content to quietly stay in the background and let the other dogs be the stars. But now she's front and center and in the spotlight, and I hope you'll send some good thoughts for this sweet girl.  

Rant and Routine

As many of you know, Tuesday marked the beginning of furloughs for about 800,000 Government employees, including Carl. No one seems to understand why Congress is this concerned with the Affordable Care Act.  Shouldn't all of it have been addressed prior to it being approved in the Senate, the House, signed into law, and upheld by the U.S. Supreme Court? So many people, programs, etc., have been affected because of a last ditch effort by ultra-conservative congressional members to corral whatever leverage available. When did holding America hostage become a political tactic?  I just don't get it.

Okay, enough of my rant...

When I wasn't obsessed and totally consumed with the news broadcasts, listening to all the political commentators, and becoming more upset about it all, it was actually a good week.

Shadow has settled into his new life and routine. He's an easy going boy that gets along really well with the other dogs and follows the crowd which makes him a great fit.  We are working on curbing his prey drive when it comes to the cat.  I remain hopeful and confident that this gentle, easy going boy that I can do practically anything to, will learn just as so many have before him, that CC is part of the pack, and not part of a meal.

Until that time comes, to keep CC safe, I've set up a little crate for her to stay in. So far, she's been quite content to spend time curled up on the warm blanket inside, or to spend time outside which she really enjoys too.

Finally, I will end this post thanking you all for your comments of support for Sunny; you have reinforced that we've made the right decision.  There are no regrets, except for scaring him with the camera.

Enjoy your Saturday!  

~Shadow and Charlie sharing a smelling-moment~ 

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